There were two groups in theclassroom. The teacher asked them how will they describe a rainbow to a blind person.

Naturalist:

 It cannot be described (since they cannot determine the colors of the rainbow).

Romantic:

You want to touch it though you really cannot; and when you think that you can almost touch it, it suddenly disappears.

Be that as it may, I came to think that I wanted to learn other languages aside from English and my own language, and so I enrolled on a Nihongo course. It was a challenging language because Japanese have a different mode of writing. Since I was eager to equip my mind with a new knowledge of other languages, I was able to master the hiragana and katakana characters. But when I reached to the part where learning the kanji, I choked some air. The sensei said there are thousands of them. Ha! Now I only remember 5 of these characters.

Yesterday, I stumbled on a page written in Japanese; and that was when I was reminded how illiterate I am to other languages than Filipino and English.

How can you say ‘yes’ to a guy when the question has already been asked a year ago? It isn’t that late but the feeling, well, doesn’t feel like it hits the timing…

Q:  why did this happen?

A: well, because I asked the guy to wait.

Aside from that, the reason why it felt more awkward was because the timing wasn’t good. A misunderstanding had happened on that assigned date (that I only have the right to set, therefore, I was the only one who knew).

For every movies, the scriptwriter is also responsible for making it enjoyable and wonderful through good plot, crisp dialogues and the like. It’s not solely the director. I perceive scriptwriters to be creator of the soul of a movie; and the director to be the one who gives it life through movement.

It is not since college that I appreciate more of the writer than the director. And apparently, it is also not until college that I saw the movie Mean Girls. (I am not a fond of girl stuff. It’s just that I love movies….*wink*…. )

Lately, I have read an article about talented individuals. That’s when I came about Tina Fey. Witty, talented, and rich. She was the  writer of Saturday Night Live, the script writer of Mean Girls where she also co-starred in, and many others. And she was announced as the “Sexiest Woman in the World” in the Annual Top 100 List  of a bisexual Web.

I’m an exception..  I sit on the chair in squat position, I walk lazily on the corridors, I act like a child sometimes, and also, I still feel a bit boyish even though I try to act feminine.

How much more would it take if I turn 19. It’s already fast approaching. I don’t usually cross out days on the calendar, I don’t even look at it everyday. This only happens when a deadline is near. Soon, my “eighteen” will come to its deadline, then I’ll be nineteen.

There’s no panic in realizing that I will soon leave my teen days behind. What I feel awkward about is that I’m not yet endowed with the emotions, intellects, and actions fit for a nineteen-year-old.

We collide on purpose

not our own

leaping

into orange.

Then I am red

and you are yellow

circling

a solitary fever.

We make

rings of fire

in dim spaces

stroking time

Where I am red

And you are yellow

And when we meet

We set ourselves on fire.

-Fran Ng

I like the poem for its fiery message, an exchange of heat creating fire. This is not only sex but also love that entails sex.

Fate made them red as red and yellow as yellow, so when they meet, they created a chemistry that set them on fire.

This made me think fate or God has His own way of introducing us our own lifetime partners. We can’t tell when or force ourselves to predict just to get frustrated. Love comes when it is ready to meet us. It doesn’t heed our wills.

My advice for those anxious girls to meet their perfect pair: one, there’s no perfect guy. Second, don’t force yourselves to guys who don’t deserve your love (and your virginity). Third, wait, wait, wait, even for a long time, because the best one will soon arrive in your life either. It might even catch you off guard.

Whenever I am late or when I’m the only person in the path walk, I run. It keeps me going.

I want to feel the beat of my heart against my chest, to pant when I feel the chaos in my lungs as they grasp for air, to heave my legs heavily with every lift and every stomp. And every lap I finished, an almost gained victory burst inside my ribcage like a bomb detonated.

I love the emotions escaping my mind. My piece of peace.

I love to run.

I love to forget why I run.

I want to forget that once we ran away to escape what we had left behind.

Now you run away, leaving everything on my shoulders.

I want to run too. To escape.

I love to run. I feel that it will keep me going. Running. Running.

DEATH NOTE

I AM JUSTICE

I just love this anime. When I read the title, the first thing that came into my mind was that this anime could be gothic and gore; but, the story doesn’t emphasize these two elements.

Death Note is written in a way that the story revolves around the theme “catch-me-if-you-can”. There is thrill and wit as the story unravels the adventures undergone by the characters:

1. Kira – The protagonist: a genius and a bored 17-year old.. His name is really Light Yagami (Raito) but the ones who are after him call him Kira. He happens to pick up the Death Note and discovered that it is a dangerous notebook that can kill humans. He chose the most hideous criminals to be victims.

2. L – The antagonist: a mysterious world-class detective that hunts down Kira. He is so curious about how Kira killed the criminals without leaving any evidence. He takes strategic measures to catch him, including his willing risky disclosure of some information about him.

3. Shinigami Ryuk – He describes the life of a Shinigami (a death god ) as a boring one. So, he dropped his Death Note to have some fun while a human uses it. In Kira and L’s chase, Ryuk has made a battle between the two. And the reward is life.

So far, this is the basic facts the story gives to us, readers, as we are about to experience the thrill in reading/watching DEATH NOTE. Keep the story come alive as we unfold its mystery and we’ll surely have fun within our boring days.

]]> http://timbagnan.wordpress.com/2008/06/21/of-thrill-and-intelligence/feed/ 1 timmy http://timbagnan.wordpress.com/2008/06/12/hello-world/ http://timbagnan.wordpress.com/2008/06/12/hello-world/#comments Thu, 12 Jun 2008 04:49:21 +0000 timbagnan ]]> First of all, I come with different names. Sometimes it’s Tim short for Tina Marl, sometimes it’s Tina or Marl, TM or Arl. It could sound as a boy’s name or a girl’s name. It doesn’t matter to me that much.

So what do I write in this blog?

I just love making friends. And my friends have a lot to say. What I do ?

I keep records of the testimonies of my friends and with their permission I publish them in my blog. This means that not all of the posts here are mine. Some of them are my friends’ but I rewrite them and put them here.

Hope you enjoy!! And keep on visiting!